Feeling bad in happiness

Im not great as the person who can be anything he/she prefer to do. For example, being happy while sad or laugh in frustrated tears. No, sad is sad and tears is tears no big smile or whatever. Fake smile never ever can recover the feeling. 

im not good in hide my feeling. when i see it is bad, it will be bad. When its good it deserved for the rewards of being good. I learn to live AS noT being a paranoid person but the enviroment, peoples dont show what I EXPECT FOR. IT IRRITATES WHEN BEING HONEST. THERE'S SOMETHING THAT SUPPOSE REMAIN UNTOLD.

nO ONE CAN BE YOU AS YOU. nATURALLY AS YOU. nO DOUBT FEELING REGRET WHEN RECALL BACK THE PAST. iM STILL LEARNING HOW TO PUT THE PAST IS ON PAST AND FUTURE IS WHAT I SHOULD FOCUS. AND NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT DO YOU WANT EXACTLY AS WHAT YOU WANT

tYPING IS OFF




p/S : DO HOPE INSYAALLAH, GET THE GOOD NEWS FOR THIS COMIN' FRIDAY FOR MYSELF AND FRIENDS.