Tajdid niats

I have tons of work, lab reports, group projects and etc. I'm scared to death of my cut of point. Banyak sangat benda nak buat, nak kena fokus, sampai to do list dah tak boleh nak determine mana satu lagi penting sebab semuanya penting. 


Then, I realised. How miserable my life now? how bad my habit now?


I used to know how to manage my time. How can I still get some times during  my matriculation year joined usrah every week. and why I stop now? I seriously dont get it.


I think i should stop saying  "I can feel that this ayat seeps down into my very veins..." 




Has it reached to my hearts yet? Or is it merely sweeping against the surface of my hearts?


I should stop feel it only, but fill it in the same time.


p/s : starting rearrange everything. NOW